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It’s kind of funny. After every recent post, wordpress sends me a a message giving me tips on how to increase my readership. Oh, whatever. Yes, I know that my readership is scant. The ego in me that listens to popular opinion does care about public opinion. The other fluctuating 70% could care less.

So, what have I been up to? I have taken a leave of absence from my PhD program. I am 43 years old. I have lived all over the world and have given my heart to my social justice focused work. I have been the director of a program that many feminists give money to without even questioning.  And yet, within my program and university I cannot find an assistantship.

Last spring, when I was at my lowest, a dear friend of mine encouraged me to apply for a part time bilingual position where she worked. If it wasn’t for the deep respect that I have for her, I probably wouldn’t have. But, I am glad that I did. For the record, people who are actually doing social justice work get more points in my book than those that merely talk about it.

Not that I do not still struggle and wonder what my next step will be. I do truly wish that I could be working on my Ph.D.  Perhaps I will, but at this point, I hold little hope. I am open to suggestions.

Honestly, all that I want to do after a hard day of trying to ensure housing for someone is journal, make mail art, and cook yummy meals for my female sweetheart. I haven’t even been going to my community’s recent progressive demonstrations even though I believe in them.

As two people that I care about recently said: “I do community service all day. That’s all that I can do. After my eight hours, all I want to do is retreat.”

I have summarized their words in my own, but I doubt that they would disagree.

I have also been working through my feelings. It may take me a year to work through what happened to me in six months.

My collages are moments in this process.

Excerpts from my first brown paper bag book:

Two art journal pages:

Thank you to Michael Franti for his help through this process.

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I haven’t been blogging all that much. I have been creating, a little journaling, mail art making, and I’ve even been experimenting with making small books out of grocery bags. Not in love with the bag books yet but it is fun to experiment.

As summer comes to a close, I thought that I’d share a few photos from the summer along with a few recently mailed collages.

My stepmother sent me these. She found them on the beach after Irene. I almost like the brown paper she wrapped them in just as much.

The kiddos lounging outside while the days are still hot.

You can’t tell from this photo but this bush has been swarming with bees. This makes me smile.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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And, in the world of mail art. I’ve been fiddling with using packing tape transfers to add quotes. A coworker reminded me of the four agreements and I decided to put three of them on cards.They are all very hard for me to follow.

Always Do Your Best

Your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick. Under any circumstance, simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgment, self-abuse, and regret.

Don’t Take Anything Personally

Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering.

Be Impeccable with your Word

Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the Word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your Word in the direction of truth and love.

No, I don’t think that this advertising campaign is impeccable with its word but wish advertising campaigns would be.

I also have been struggling with letting myself experiment and am trying to remind myself to trust imperfection.

Notice that I now have a sewing machine. I’m pretty excited about it. I’m still learning how to use it, especially on my postcards though.

This last pink stitch is not at all what I thought that it was going to look like. I like it.

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And one last thing. I just discovered Pinterest and started a few boards. It is such a nice way to keep all of my favorite images from the web in one place. If any readers have pages too, I’d love to share. Always looking for new inspiration!

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